Scycee

so today was my first day of classes here. mind you, i only had 2, but thats alright. and i just got my internet yesterday evening :( anyway, its going well. i think. i dont like how on the syllabuseseses my professors didnt clarify whether the date listed is the due date or date we will receive the assignment... but i am actually making some friends... i think. but one person seems WAY too much like amanda forrest. and shes in my art class. which is where i met amanda oh dear O__o my roommate is pretty cool. we dont seem to have any overlapping interest except watching the brewers, so i thought i would have troubles talking to

so you and you have left i leave friday and i was just kinda starting to kick my summer off and actually do things with people other than just the main 3-ish i feel like my summer was wasted probably because i wasnt working much and wasted days doing pointless things i should have actually gotten something done... remember how i said i was going to charcoal a portrait of my dad and lisa? yeah didnt happen i thought i would have time to actually beat some videogames i didnt beat any maybe also im used to having to please my mother so much so the tediousness of that has been gone most of this summer where did all the time go?

things dont seem right recently i feel invisible and like people who i was better friends with and introduced to other people bond with the other person and forget about me or that with others our past doesn't matter and they blow right past me toward their next destination or i don't see their thought process and try to ask what is going on and they tell me "oh nothing" nothing? i dont think so offer hugs, lets talk, actually hang out oh im too tired tired? you werent an hour ago. blargh. i barely hang out with anyone people are busy im busy people are in different cities you know i cant read people especially not te